Way back when I started this blog I put forth the notion of "Using Fat" instead of losing weight. Since body transformation starts with changing your mind about what's possible, we have to get the mind on board with our plans for change. Now nobody wants to lose at anything, but there's certainly nothing wrong with the idea of using weight to fuel transformation. The big challenge of course, at least for me, is finding a way to eat fewer calories than I "use" without freaking out and eating a whole bunch of calorie dense foods to restore my equilibrium.
Enter the power of entering contests.
Over the past three years, I have entered several transformation contests, and with each one, I have moved ever closer to the ideal that I've held in my mind for a long, long, time. In between, I tend to eat up to, or a little bit over maintenance, whether or not that was my declared intention. Because of this, the process has taken time, but maybe it's for the best. At least my skin had always had a chance to keep up with the changes, and I think that's key for anyone who wants to lose (oops, use!) a significant amount of fat over the age of forty. Once I got to 120 pounds, which at 5'1" puts me at a healthy BMI of 22.7, my goal became less about health, and more about the intense desire to reach an ideal. What does it take, and do I have it in me? The contests I enter tend to focus my attention, intention, and desire. They also provide a crucial ingredient for procrastinators like me- A Deadline! Fortunately, my ability to change over time has pretty much disqualified me from transformation contests. Believe me, I don't want to change back to being overfat in order to keep transforming. So now I'm headed into my first open competition ever. Hey, now that I think about it, it's fantastic to be in this place, but it's going to take two weeks of the most dedicated eating I've ever done in order to do justice to the shape I've built in the gym.
Sharing The Journey
I'm so grateful to have a place to share these plans and musings, because it is so easy to give up the promises I only make to myself. One of the things I perceive as a fault is my almost overwhelming need for approval, so by making my intentions public I add the energy of that fault to my efforts. So now what? What am specifically going to do to make sure that my pictures look great on April 12th? Well, for one thing, I'm going to post my menu and my workouts here. Speaking of which, I've got to get to the gym and back by 9:00AM, so I'd better get moving!